About Me

ReRe1970 · #1 11-05-2009, 11:19 AM

I'm 5 foot 7 inches tall.been together with my high school sweetheart or going on 8 yrs.I was born with an eye defect which made my pupils in the shape of 16th century skelton key,key holes.I have been asked if they are contacts alot and people are amazed when I tell them their my actual eyes.I am loved by my boyfriend and our 4 dogs.We have 2 chihuahuas,minature bulldog and a mixed chihuahua,pug and pit.The 2 chihuahuas are named Tiny and Bhubie-Kuz the bulldog is named Fatty Mcfatback and the triple terror is name Dallas.I live in the westside of Jacksonville,Florida.

.Well thats all about me.I hope it is enough for everyone to enjoy.Peace Out and Love.

dar dar · #2 11-05-2009, 05:51 PM

hello ReRe1970 , my name is dar dar, I am a wifey just had an anniv. on the 2nd, I have 2 wonderful children 1 boy and a a girl who I think are great. I am blessed because they are both married have wonderful jobs and spouses and are doing well. I know that God has truly blessed me all around. I was drawn to you because I have health problems and people can be so cruel, my pupil's don't react to light they are huge, so when i come inside I stumble a lot, or when I go outside I might miss some steps, and instead of helping me they laugh. So I say just keep the faith and let your man love on you and let the others fall by the wayside. love you to pieces

dar dar · #3 11-06-2009, 06:41 PM

while i was out today running my errands i saw a homeless woman laying ball-ed up on a concret step trying to shield herself from the wind, and the cold, it's 48 dgs. here. My mind went back to the constant complaining we do a-bout being cold, to windy, no patience, and so on. I'm right here in the house and fussing about heat because of my anemia, but at least I can go get a blanket or turn up the heat, there was a time I had no heat. stay positive. Love you all to pieces

Vanlandia · #4 11-06-2009, 08:23 PM

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Originally Posted by dar dar

while i was out today running my errands i saw a homeless woman laying ball-ed up on a concret step trying to shield herself from the wind, and the cold, it's 48 dgs. here. My mind went back to the constant complaining we do a-bout being cold, to windy, no patience, and so on. I'm right here in the house and fussing about heat because of my anemia, but at least I can go get a blanket or turn up the heat, there was a time I had no heat. stay positive. Love you all to pieces

Well, that women chooses to be homeless, just as I choose to be an alkaholik pill popping mom. I could very easily turn my situation around and make something of myself..besides insane..however, I just don't feel like it until Luca's in kindergarden. The point being...it's simply a choice.

dar dar · #5 11-07-2009, 10:50 AM

i was almost homeless not by my choice but my parents acoholizming and abuse but my grandma came and and got me. i just hope hope for your childs sake you pick him over the othe other. i didn't have a choice in the matter. not a judgement just a prayer. love you to peices:

Vanlandia · #6 11-07-2009, 11:34 AM

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Originally Posted by dar dar

i was almost homeless not by my choice but my parents acoholizming and abuse but my grandma came and and got me. i just hope hope for your childs sake you pick him over the othe other. i didn't have a choice in the matter. not a judgement just a prayer. love you to peices:

Wow, I was actually expecting you to blast me on how irresponsable of a parent I may be, however, another surprising fact is that Luca is well taken care of, a lilttle on the spoiled side. I live my life according to what feels right or even wrong a lot of the time but that's simply due to society as a whole, and the general concensus that we must act in a certain way and maintain diginty and conduct, when really..were all human and we all have our flaws, issues..whatever. It is a shame that I choose to polute my body and my mind with prescriptions and booze, however, and this is not an excuse, but it goes to show how messed up and contridictory the world is, as the doctor's have been prescribing me a molotov cocktail of meds since I was a kid...so yeah..maybe I was wrong..cuz after 20 years of abusing meds..it's no longer a choice in a manner of speaking that I can quit anytime, it's come to a point where I function and deal with life better while legally intoxicated. I was abused and severly neglected when I was a child, and Luca doesn't know what that's like, nor will he ever experience the same childhood as I did. The only real issue is me and my habits, which don't effect Luca. But yeah..it's not the greatest example, however free will causes contridiction and so does freedom. I am tied to to a toddler with minimal assistance and no family moral support and we live well, I could say **** it..but it's not even an option as I wouldn't wish my arch enemy..even if it's only in my head sometimes (lol) the type of upbringing I had. ..and a sidenote..as nasty as my words may sound sometimes...there not always intentional.

dar dar · #7 11-08-2009, 02:24 PM

no sweetie i would never blast you because i didn't know your past until just now, and even now that wouldn't be right. that's whats wrong with people they act like butter has melted in mouths all of their lives. not so. but you know i told myself i was going to do everything in my power to never do to my kids what my parents did to me and my brothers and sister because at my age i still remember that stuff, and trust me Luca knows more than you think .you and Luca deserve all the love that God has in store for you. believe that, expect a lot, you'll get a lot. that's what my Grandma said, it works. keep your chin up, chest out, shoulders out. i believe in you and Luca. Love you yo pieces

Vanlandia · #8 11-08-2009, 03:01 PM

lol, thanks..oh I get a lot alright..a lot of tantrums, a lot of laundry, cleaning and cooking!! What God has in store for me is a lifetime of struggles.

dar dar · #9 11-09-2009, 05:59 PM

hey baby girl you're not going to struggle long if you don't believe it, i don't
God didn't mean for us to struggle all of our days nor were our days meant to be easy. but i'm not going to sit here and let you give in, up, or out on your-self or life because you sound so much like me. been thru a lot, seen a lot
but we're still here, and that can only be because we are strong women so
don't short change yourself' those tantrums have got to go MISTER LUCA
needs some time outs, and some disappearing toys, ans see how he likes
them apples, i had a son who threw on in his entire life. but i was a day care
provider and you can't beat other peoples kids like you might want to so
you have to think faster then the kids, so i got creative.
love you to pieces stay strong don't let me or yourself down

Vanlandia · #10 11-10-2009, 08:14 AM

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Originally Posted by dar dar

hey baby girl you're not going to struggle long if you don't believe it, i don't
God didn't mean for us to struggle all of our days nor were our days meant to be easy. but i'm not going to sit here and let you give in, up, or out on your-self or life because you sound so much like me. been thru a lot, seen a lot
but we're still here, and that can only be because we are strong women so
don't short change yourself' those tantrums have got to go MISTER LUCA
needs some time outs, and some disappearing toys, ans see how he likes
them apples, i had a son who threw on in his entire life. but i was a day care
provider and you can't beat other peoples kids like you might want to so
you have to think faster then the kids, so i got creative.
love you to pieces stay strong don't let me or yourself down

LOL..No, I know..I was in a mood when I wrote that. I'm laughing and crying at the same time..Luca..so ironic..Jess, my fiancee is getting more strict with Luca cuz I spoil him and let him get away with everything..example..I gave Luca the master bedroom to accomadate all his toys and I took the smaller bedroom..with the kid's color blue walls..yeah..he's been getting time out's lately cuz he fly's by on his tricycle..which shouldn't even be in the house to begin with..and hits me, than pedals away..sorry..crying now..have so much to say..anyway..I can't even continue what's on my mind cuz i'm crying but I'll just continue it later with the edit button. I just realized how spoiled he is.

to be continued type of thing...

Well..I took away Luca's tricycle, his T.V. in his room, dvd, and satelite. Than the neighbour gave me some more advice on what to do when he starts the tantrums..so I put him in the boringest corner of the house facing the wall. Oh and I took the master bedroom back!

dar dar · #11 11-12-2009, 01:05 AM

you go girl, you can cry if you want to . just put on your big girl pants and walk into that camp and show MISTER LUCA that while you love him to life
he will respect you and every word that comes out of your mouth. us moms get a bad rap as the mean on and the dads come in on a white horse letting them get away with everything,i learned to accept that roll because some-
body had to be the rule keeper, so if that made me the bad guy oh well.
they turned out pretty damned good if i must say so myself. so do what
you have to do, but make sure you take out some "me time" for yourself
to love on yourself and after while you'll be writing to me telling me how
much less you're drugging and drinking accept for fun, hey!
i live you to pieces keep your head up, we'll talk tomorrow, you made a
great start.peace and blessings

Vanlandia · #12 11-12-2009, 06:21 PM

Yes, I cried...and I cry a lot, but right now I can't get over that damn cow murder...lol..it's not funny.

I'll write when I can focus.

Vanlandia · #13 11-13-2009, 02:39 PM

Well alright…now that the freakin’ cow thing is almost outta my head..sounds crazy..but it had an effect on me as I’ve never seen anything die right in front of me..accept for a goldfish that jumped out da bowl when I was a kid and than I stepped on it..not knowing it had suicided itself beforehand type of ****..lol, we can get right back to talkin’ bout me!! The “Meet Virginia” monologues continue..

Mister Luca got his T.V and dvd player back..Whattt??!! He’s still getting time out’s in the boring corner’s of the house though..only for 3 min. at a time cuz he’s 3 years old. Kinda working…takes patience on both our parts. He also started riding the big boy trike at daycare..he was into the lowrider one, but all of a sudden he riding the one that he can barly reach the pedals cuz his friends are riding them..boyz! He went flying into a fence downhill this morning when I dropped him off and I almost had a freakin’ heart attack..Clocked him goin’ at least 2.5 mph on the bike path. Boyz have no fear, it’s insane. Luca is so cute though..soon..and I will..post pics of him cuz when y’all see him..those who haven’t and plus he’s gotton so tall..he’s just as adorable as that Nathaniel..you’ll all understand why it’s so hard to discipline him!!

dar dar · #14 11-14-2009, 01:12 AM

i'm so proud of you, you sound so much better so much more in control of your-self. Mister Luca sees that there's a change in the camp believe me those three mins. are a longer for him than they are for you. just keep at it you're doing great i can see the change from the words. Mister Luca wondering
whats up with my mom lol. when his stuff keep vanishing believe me (fa-
vorite) stuff people change, we do don't we lol. It's been a long week for me
and it's real co;d and rainy here, i had some people issues to deal with, the way i deal with dumb is not respond to them at all until they come back to
reality, then i'll talk to you until then, i have no words to waste on you.
they know, and if they forgot i guess they got a refresher course this week.
love you to pieces keep up the good work and don't forget about yourself,
do something for YOU

R*RASH · #15 11-14-2009, 02:31 PM

its doesn't take long for my words to spin riddles
Pyramidal pedistol is where thus i summon Grendal.
My blood is schwhacked like my own fratricidal brother!
My name is similar but anyhow unlike no other.
My name is the perimeter of the ground i by holdin'
my game is to climb, climb of the Mountain of the Divine
i can't believe is what i'm be seeing,
so colorful bright light, this field of dreams itself is the meaning.
Now my eye has that gleam, the kind when you know that you're right
and the world unfolds with luck, front to back thats hella-tight.
now quit your crying this mushroomtrip has just begun
quit your crying girl- everythings gonna be alright.